My Journey to Now...
As a legally blind girl, I was often not part of the crowd.
At an early age I loved going off on my own to meditate and connect with nature.
In grade 3 a team from UNICEF came to school and showed us a film of a project in Africa. I decided at the age of 10 that I wanted to go somewhere and "help" people too.
I began learning yoga at the age of 12 when my teachers finally realized that baseball might not be my thing! I fell in love with it! It was one more way that I could go deeper into the moment and deeper into understanding myself.
At that same age, I went to a multicultural festival where I was introduced to Indian culture. I loved everything about it. The food was incredible. As a vegetarian kid I was so happy to find out that food could be spiced and exciting! Saved from the world of mashed potatoes!
I vowed that one day I would study Indian Classical dance.
At 19, that dream came true and I spent the next 5 years studying Bharatha Natyam. This dance style enabled me to express my feelings with my entire body!
When I was 21, I went to India to further my studies in yoga and Indian Classical Dance, and volunteer in orphanages.
I began to study Ayurveda there. I learned how to eat foods that would support my spiritual and physical health.
I learned how to live in rhythm with the lunar cycle.
I learned Vedic chanting and Vedic Palmistry.
3 Magical Years in India
In 2010, I was burned during a festival in our temple when my sari caught on fire.
I had severe scarring and nerve damage on my left leg and suffered from PTSD. My mother requested all of my friends who were healers to do energy healing for me. There were days when I could feel my father in law doing a ceremony where he offered cooling water for my body.
I was told I would need three surgeries to deal with my scars and that even after that, I may not be able to teach yoga.
I worked hard at regaining my flexibility and taught my first class two months after my injury.
Herbal oils healed my skin and meditation and yoga helped skin grow where doctors were sure more grafting would be required.
I visited a psychiatrist who was amazed that I used meditation and Pranic healing to recover in three months from PTSD while others struggle their entire lives.
This injury tested my faith and my dedication to the healing arts.
It made me realize how truly powerful nature is and gave me the opportunity to test everything I had learned. I consider it my PhD Thesis.
My Dance with Fire
Fire taught me so much about myself and finally helped me see that I had a special gift that I could offer. That gift was simply - me. I embraced the fact that what had been considered a disability was actually my offer to the world. It took me forty years to realize that I was visually impaired so that I could enter deeper mind states and do readings for people.
I finally understand that I am differently sighted and my vision is a gift that I can use to see people's unique gifts and the obstacles in the way to their success.
I want you to know that you are gifted and your life events have been guiding you on the path to your purpose since you were born. There is nothing that you have experienced that is not part of your purpose!
I love working with people to heal pain and connect them to beauty.
I connect to beauty that others do not see because they are distracted by other things. I hear the birds singing love songs from spirit. I smell the celebration of the earth in her anticipation for the rain. I see beauty in the hearts of people that society casts aside.
If there was one thing I could do everyday it would be to connect people to this beauty that is infused in every drop of the ether that surrounds us!
The Synthesis of it All
Finally, after much struggle within my family my Guru came and told me the meaning of my spiritual name, Mandakini. He told me that Mandakini was a tributary of Ganga that flowed in heaven. That all of the Gods came and washed themselves in her waters to purify their negative tendencies. He told me that Shiva mixed the sacred ash that he smeared on his body in the waters of Mandakini. He told me that those who chose to know themselves came to her for clearing. He told me it was time to cut myself free from family violence and focus on helping those who wanted to be helped.
I'd been married 23 years to a Hindu priest who had introduced me to so many gurus and taught me so many things but it was time to be free of darkness and step into the next part of my evolution.
It was during the pandemic that I had time to return to my deeper practices and I remembered:
I am Sat (truth) Chit (consciousness) and Ananadam (bliss).
It was then that it hit me.
All of these things I had learned were to be felt, lived, embodied. Our senses and chakras are there to guide us.
As women, we need to reconnect to our womb chakra or Hara, the sacred place of spiritual wisdom. We need to reconnect to out bliss so that we can tap into the consciousness and truth that can lead this world to a better place.
I have studied the following modalities:
Herbology (International College of Herbal Medicine)
Pranic Healing (https://pranichealing.com/)
Reiki (Usui Master, Kundalini, Lightarian, Violet Flame)